Last week was a bit of a muddle. I injured my foot and spent most of the week sitting on the couch going crazy. I hate being laid up but my foot was not happy if I used it. As I sat, self-absorbed and frustrated, I really did not pay a lot of attention to diabetes.
I yelled out the normal "Did you test?". I asked what he bolused and helped to calculate meals. I hobbled out of bed each night to test. I failed at Reading Review Thursday and swore we would do it the next night, and the next night, and so on. I didn't keep track of when the next site change was due and sadly trusted my 14 year old to actually pay attention to the alert on his pump. Yes, I majorly failed as a parent of a child with diabetes and diabetes got its revenge.
I finally looked at my son's pump after a bolus and decided to check when the next site change was due. My son quickly grabbed his pump back and attempted to escape my limited grasp. I somehow hauled him back and reviewed the screens. The site change was FOUR days over due! I could not breathe. I wanted to beat him with his tubing. What was he thinking? Or not thinking? What the heck was I going to do to get him to remember??
I told him to change his site NOW! No games, no chats, no text. March his butt in his room and change that site before I put one in his tush! I was doing my best to breathe and allow him to live another day. He had been high for the past few nights...now I knew why.
I kicked myself. I should not have allowed things to slide. I should have been on top of things. I have been slack on a lot lately. I had to pull myself together! The next thing was to review the readings.
I had him bring out his meters and a sheet of paper. We were going to get down to brass tacks and review things.
"Mom, we really can't make a lot of changes. My site was really old so the readings won't be accurate."
Thanks! I needed to be reminded of how we failed! I told him that I wanted to check things anyway. I looked at the first meter. It was his USB one. This meter is still so neat but I couldn't remember how we reviewed readings without sticking it into a computer. Finally we figured it out and I began my review. I loved the highlighted highs and lows. The readings were everywhere but the display was so cool that I was oblivious to much else.
Next I moved onto the school meter. There were no readings. None. Nothing. Was he using a different meter? He brought out a second one. It had a few readings but something was seriously wrong. He swore he tested. I checked the dates on the meters. We have a real issue with One touch Mini's changing the date and time. I know that they are supposed to be the most accurate meter on the market but this problem drives me insane.
The meter was off...like by years! It had the time as two hours later than it should be, the year was 2010 and the dates was October. How the heck was I supposed to go back and figure out what he really was and when? He had missed tests so I could not really even take three tests each day and guesstimate. I was frustrated.
We made a small change and I told him we were going to have to be way more on top of this. He had to test at school. We had a problem but I couldn't solve it without the data of those tests.
As he left, I wanted to scream at myself. How could I be so slack? He is only 14 and he is a teen. He forgets. He gets lazy. If I was on top of this days ago, I would have information and would have known that the meters were off. I wanted to cry. I wanted to yell. I should have run over a meter. That just may have helped.
Instead, I promised myself that today will be better. I have circled his next site change on the calendar. I will try to be more proactive. I will work harder to be a better pancreas guide. I have to. We aren't allowed to quit.