It is that time of year again, a time when I seriously start to think about a CGM for my son. I have been researching them for years. Cost has always been a huge deterrent but I have said that when he became more independent and before university it would be a must.
Today I spoke a bit with his diabetes team about the various systems. We were in agreement as to which system would work best...the one that I can't get right now of course.
As adamant as I am about getting a system, my son is equally as adamant about not having one. He detests the idea of another site. He cannot stand the idea of carrying around the receiver. He would prefer to carry his meter and test when he feels he needs it.
I tried to tell him that he could safely miss more tests with a sensor. I would still have data and trends that could be used. I would be able to rest at nights with the knowledge that he is stable or his readings are headed up from a lower range. He would not necessarily have to test in front of his friends. He still wants no part of it.
I have been racking my brain trying to figure out how to convince him that it can work. Using it may be the best solution but it is not something that anyone has laying around for me to try him with. He is of an age when he can have a say and it kills me. I appreciate the independence but the stubborn "I will not try anything new. I am still alive with the old way." attitude kills me.
What hurts me even more is when I read stories like I saw today. The tale of young Matthew Calderon. He was diagnosed at age 2 just like my son. He played basketball and after a night of play, had a seizure and died. In other words, he went low and never recovered.
I try not to read these stories. I cannot think that this could be my child but I also know that technology can help to save lives. It is not perfect. It can fail but it can also help. It can only help if it is used. It can only be used if you can afford it. If you can afford it, it can still only be effective if you wear it.
I desperately want my son to wear it. I want him to appreciate the benefit. I want to change his stubborn attitude. It scares me for the future. I pray that this is disgruntled adolescence after a week that did not go his way. I pray that he will be open to keeping himself as healthy as he possibly can.